Wake up（36）

 

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The flowers bloom for a season, and if they fail, they will bloom again in the next year; after this life is over, there will be no afterlife. Life should be simple and simple, away from the disturbances of the world, live the life you want to live, and be at ease, that's good. Everyone has ups and downs, just pat the dust and keep going! May we all find the beauty that belongs to us, and enjoy every day and be happy every day in the quiet years!

This is a saying often said by He Jiafu, an old comrade-in-arms of old Chinese medicine practitioner Chai Jianhua.

In 2020, the new crown epidemic will become more and more serious. On February 6, Dr. Li Wenliang, the "whistleblower" who first disclosed the Wuhan epidemic, died of illness on Thursday local time after contracting the new crown virus pneumonia.

Based on reports from China's official "People's Daily", "Global Times", "Beijing News", and Jiemian News, Li Wenliang's heart stopped at 9:30 that night. He is only 34 years old, leaving behind his wife and 5-year-old child. Within two hours of Chinese state media announcing Li Wenliang's death, numerous online posts about Li Wenliang were deleted. Many Chinese media have even changed their tune and said that Li Wenliang is "still in a state of rescue."

The official microblog of Wuhan Central Hospital later released a message saying, "Li Wenliang, an ophthalmologist in our hospital, was unfortunately infected in the fight against the pneumonia epidemic caused by the new coronavirus infection. We deeply regret and condolences for this.” The World Health Organization (WHO) immediately expressed its condolences to Li Wenliang’s death through its official Twitter page, and thanked him for “the work he has done in this epidemic.”

Not only that, but later Li Wenliang's parents were also infected with the new coronavirus and were sent to the hospital. No one said that these eight "whistleblowers" were rumormongers anymore. But the problem is, it's too late, the virus has already spread in Wuhan and all over China. With the ferment of the virus epidemic and the increasing number of deaths and infections, Wuhan implemented an unprecedented city closure plan.

Now, 95-year-old Chinese doctor Chai Jianhua is also sick, but he did not go to the hospital, which is already overcrowded.

Nanyang came to visit Chai Jianhua during his lifetime.

Nan Yangsheng turned on his mobile phone, and Chai Jianhua read "Wuhan Diary" written by Chinese writer Fang Fang. Fang Fang, who lives in Wuhan, China, has long been a well-known writer. When the epidemic broke out in Wuhan, she recorded what she saw, heard, and felt every day for two months in the city of Wuhan. , causing a huge commotion. After the initial control of the epidemic in China, the news that "Wuhan Diary" will be published in many overseas countries has aroused vicious slander from the extreme left forces, saying that it "handed the knife" to the anti-China forces in the West, "traitors", and "sell out the country". All in one. Fang Fang believes that "I have been helping the government, including offering opinions and pointing out problems, which is also a way of helping. When the government does well, I also praise them." But what she didn't expect was that many rumors and frame-ups followed, but she didn't regret it. Fang Fang said: "I was just sealed up in the city and recorded the situation of the epidemic for 60 days, which caused such a big tear in the Chinese people, and people mainly from the ultra-left forces tortured me for several years. Months of online violence, all kinds of malicious insults, rumors and frame-ups were carried out in a group way, which I did not expect at all. This also shows the arrogance of extreme left forces in China, and there is a market."

Nan Yangsheng told Chai Jianhua: French, English, German and other versions of "Wuhan Diary" have been released overseas, but there is still no news about the Chinese version. Fang Fang told the BBC that neither her new works nor new editions of her old works can be published in China, nor can she publish any words in Chinese paper media.

However, although Fang Fang was framed and attacked by extreme left forces, readers still sent flowers from time to time. A text message circulated in Fang Fang’s circle of friends wrote: “Occasionally going out after the epidemic, there are always people who express their gratitude to me. In the difficult moments of life, I have my diary to accompany and comfort them. It is a great honor to hear such words. Thanks to the 60 days of recording. Otherwise, many details will not be remembered.”

There is a scholar named Li Yi, who is said to be famous for his so-called "Taiwan rule by martial arts", but in the past two days he uttered wild words, saying that the Wuhan epidemic caused more than 4,000 Chinese deaths, which is nothing compared to foreign countries. Dead people, zero deaths. Fang Fang also commented on this matter in the above text message: "Today, I saw a video called Li Yi. He laughed when he talked about the epidemic and talked about 'zero death', reminding me of a Word: ferocious. In the past few months, how many ferocious faces have I seen."

Chai Jianhua was lying on the hospital bed, his heart was in a mess. He was disappointed with this society and felt that the rest of his life was numbered. He decided to tell Yang Nansheng some tragic stories that had been hidden in his heart for decades.

At this time, Chai Jianhua decided to tell Nan Yangsheng the reason for the death of his old comrade-in-arms He Jiafu. He knew he didn't have much time left.

Chai Jianhua began to tell the story about He Jiafu and Nanyangsheng's three brothers and sisters, their biological parents.

It turned out that the three brothers and sisters born in Nanyang were all nephews and nieces adopted by He Jiafu.

"Where do I come from?" This is an innocent question that children have asked, but it is a difficult question in adoptive families. He Jiafu resorted to concealment.

When Nan Yangsheng was 5 months old, he was abandoned by his biological mother and raised by his nanny Alan. Alan's husband strongly disagreed with the adoption of the baby boy because of the family's difficulties. Alan adopted the baby boy anyway, and the couple often quarreled about it.

Alan met He Jiafu once. So he tried his best to persuade He Jiafu to adopt the baby boy, and promised He Jiafu that she would come to help take care of the child often.

Alan told He Jiafu: The father of this baby boy is a migrant worker and has been away from home. His mother stayed at home. The biological mother, who was in her 20s, lived upstairs alone with the baby boy in Alan's house.

One day, the baby boy cried all night, and the next day Alan couldn't help but ask, "What's wrong with the baby?"

The child's biological mother hesitated and said, "I have no money to buy milk powder and diapers, and the child is hungry and uncomfortable. My husband forced me to go out to work together. I don't know what to do."

Alan immediately decided to take care of the baby boy and let his biological mother go to other places to find a job.

That was in 1996. After the baby boy's biological mother paid the babysitting fee several times, she couldn't be contacted.

Alan said to He Jiafu: I wanted to adopt this baby boy, but my family's financial situation is not good, especially my husband firmly disagreed with the adoption and asked me to send the baby to the police station. I refuse to do so.

Alan shed tears while talking, and kept repeating what the baby boy's birth mother said at the time: "Don't hate your mother, mother loves you, and mother has no choice but to do so."

He Jiafu has never been married because of missing a leg. Later, he adopted a baby girl who was abandoned in the paddy field, named He Zhongmiao. When He Zhongmiao grew up, he married Nan Lutong from the same village.

Nanyangsheng's mother, Nae Tanaka, has suffered from depression for a long time. She has been depressed most of the time for more than two weeks in a row, and has lost her sense of joy or interest in life. Nan Yangsheng had no impression of his father since he was a child. His father, Nan Lutong, worked outside the home for a long time, and occasionally sent some money to treat Miao Tanaka. But Tanaka has become hopeless about the future, has disturbed sleep, and feels particularly tired or lacks energy. Tanaka Miao's emotional changes made her often have physical symptoms of pain, fatigue, and weakness. Tanaka Miao finally chose to commit suicide in despair. Shortly after the death of his mother, Tanaka Miao, Nanyangsheng's father, Nan Lutong, died on the construction site due to an accident when he was working outside.

Nanyangsheng's grandfather, He Jiafu, was a disabled person with missing legs. After losing his adopted daughter and son-in-law, he was very lonely.

He Jiafu is getting older now, adopting a helpless child is not only a good deed, but also adds some fun to life. In this way, the baby boy came to He Jiafu when he was nearly one year old. He Jiafu loved him very much and named him Nanyangsheng.

Alan did not know the names of the baby boy's biological parents, but only knew that his biological mother was named Aijuan. Nan Yangsheng didn't know that he was He Jiafu's adopted nephew, and He Jiafu never told Nan Yangsheng about his life experience.

When the old Chinese doctor Chai Jianhua talked about this, he suddenly asked Nan Yangsheng: "If you find your biological mother and biological father, would you want to go back?" How is it possible? Of course not! Nan Yangsheng said affirmatively: "He Jiafu will always be my grandfather."

Two years later, Alan came to He Jiafu crying: "Mr. He, my husband was beaten to death by a group of hooligans, and now I am a helpless widow. I hope you can take me in as your goddaughter. I can take care of you." You can also take care of the young Nanyang Sheng, and I can be his adoptive mother."

He Jiafu agreed. Alan said to the old man again: "Don't call me Alan in the future, just call me He Zhongmiao. In this way, you will feel that your daughter is still alive and is always with you."

"He Zhongmiao, He Zhongmiao. She was abandoned by the paddy field, so I named her this. You should be called He Zhonglan. You are a pair of life and death sisters."

Chai Jianhua, an old Chinese doctor, told Nan Yangsheng that your real adoptive mother is not He Zhongmiao, but He Zhonglan. She has been in her care since you were born.

Nan Yangsheng nodded and said, "Yes, thank you Mr. Chai for telling me all this. Then, my younger sister and younger brother were also adopted?"

Veteran Chinese doctor Chai Jianhua said: "Yes, your three brothers and sisters are all adopted by Mr. He."

Chai Jianhua began to tell the story of the adoption of Nan Liwa, Nan Yangsheng's younger sister.

Like Nan Yangsheng, Nan Liwa doesn't know who her biological father and mother are. She only knew that her mother was He Zhonglan, and He Zhonglan's father was He Jiafu. She has never seen her father since she was a child.

Chai Jianhua said, it was January 22, 1998, when your adoptive mother He Zhonglan found an abandoned baby by the cowshed near her home. The abandoned baby was placed in a shopping bag, and the umbilical cord on the belly button had not fallen off. It was judged that it was only a few days after birth. There was a birthmark on the thigh, and the whole body was purple from the cold.

He Zhonglan took the abandoned baby home, and the abandoned baby was a girl. He Zhonglan ran all over the village, but no one knew who abandoned the girl. But the local patriarchy is patriarchal. Obviously, her parents don't want a girl in the family. Maybe the girl has several older sisters.

The kind-hearted He Jiafu agreed with He Zhonglan's idea, adopted the baby girl, and named her Nanliwa.

Nanyangsheng is 2 years older than his sister Nanliwa. Nan Yangsheng originally had to grab his adoptive mother He Zhonglan's hair to fall asleep at night, but on the first day Nan Liwa came, Nan Yangsheng stayed by his sister's bedside and cared for her to sleep.

Nan Yangsheng grew up day by day, and he took care of his younger sister like a mother and grandfather. Never lose your temper with your sister. Children from other people's families are also not allowed to bully their sisters, and they will speak out to intimidate those neighboring children who try to bully their sisters.

But on the first day, Nanliwa cried all night. At that time, Nan Yangsheng was by his sister's side, and he looked at her blankly, thinking that as long as he hugged her, maybe everything would be fine. He wants to learn to be a good brother.

From sticking to his mother and grandfather to caring for his younger sister, Nan Yangsheng grew up and became the guardian of his younger sister.

Once, a girl in the village suddenly said to Nan Liwa: "You are not a child born to your mother, you were picked up." The girl next to her also shouted loudly: "You were picked up, you were picked up You don't have a father!"

Seeing his younger sister being bullied by neighbors, Nan Yangsheng rushed forward: "If you keep talking nonsense, I will fix you!"

The girls ran away in fright. But he also left a cruel sentence: Everyone in the village knows that your sister was picked up!

The young Nan Liwa never thought that she was not her own, but she did not tell her grandfather and mother about it.

However, He Zhonglan still knew about it. She called Nan Yangsheng and Nan Liwa to her side.

He Zhonglan said to the two children: "Your grandfather is a kind and kind man. He changed my life. When my grandfather was young, he couldn't find a good job because he was missing a leg. He lived in poverty. He was never married. He is always looked down upon and discriminated against by people, but he is still full of love. I also believe that good things are rewarded with good things. After my husband and I broke up, I took my newborn child to look for your grandfather and asked him for help. That’s it, Your grandfather took me and the child in, and I became your grandfather's goddaughter. This child is Nanyangsheng."

He Zhonglan said to Nan Yangsheng: "Did your grandfather ever beat you? Scolded you? No, you should remember his kindness to you. You and I have no blood relationship with your grandfather."

He Zhonglan told the two children that your grandfather said to me: Why would I adopt a child? It's not about bringing the child home, it's giving love, or I'm helping the child, I always think it's bringing a "joy" home, and having this child will add endless laughter to the family Voice.

He Zhonglan said to Nan Liwa again: "Liwa, I know you have been wronged. Some people say that you were picked up. Do you believe this is true?"

Nan Liwa lowered her head, then slowly raised her head and looked at He Zhonglan with wide eyes.

He Zhonglan smiled and said: "Some people say that children are born from the stomach, but I say that some children are actually born from the heart. You were born from my heart. If you don't believe it, you can ask your grandfather .”

He Zhonglan no longer concealed their life experience from the two children, life experience was no longer a taboo, and worries disappeared.

The entanglement between Nan Yangsheng and Nan Liwa gradually resolved. They loved their adoptive mother He Zhonglan and their adoptive mother's grandfather He Jiafu, saying that they would never leave them.

He Zhonglan hugged her daughter Nan Liwa's soft and small body, feeling very happy.

Nan Yangsheng suddenly understood that his mother and grandfather had concealed him for so many years in order not to hurt their self-esteem. After growing up, Nan Yangsheng once said frankly that I don't care about blood relationship, and even despise the concept that blood is thicker than water.

But at this time, He Zhonglan pondered for a while, and suddenly said: "I want to talk to you about something and listen to your thoughts."

Nan Yangsheng and Nan Liwa froze for a moment, then looked at each other.

At this time, grandpa walked over with his missing leg.

Grandpa He Jiafu smiled kindly and said, "Son, if we adopt another child who lost his parents, will you accept this lovely little brother?"

Nan Liwa hurried to her grandfather, took her hand and said, "I want, I want my brother!"

The introverted Nan Yangsheng didn't say a word.

He Zhonglan said to Nan Yangsheng: "This little boy's parents have gone to heaven, and the little boy has been taken care of by his grandma. His grandma has cataracts in his eyes, and he often goes to the old Chinese doctor Chai Jianhua to see a doctor. He told me about it." .So I often visit their grandparents and grandchildren. The little boy is very close to me and always calls me mom, and I like him very much. He is now 3 years old."

While they were talking, the old Chinese doctor Chai Jianhua came running with the little boy.

Nan Liwa immediately walked up to the little boy and tightened his little hand. The little boy was not afraid of life, he stared at Nan Yangsheng with his big eyes, and Nan Yangsheng walked to the little boy.

The old Chinese doctor Chai Jianhua whispered to He Jiafu: "His grandma passed away two hours ago. I have asked my friend to arrange the funeral. What will happen to this child in the future? I will go to Hong Kong next week and cannot take care of him." .”

He Jiafu's gaze turned to He Zhonglan.

He Zhonglan said: "It's God's will. This little boy came into our life. For me, this is the best blessing from God and God's trust in us. This child is my youngest son. I think Yang Sheng He and Liwa won't bully him."

Chai Jianhua said: "If you are going to adopt this child, you must not hold the mentality of charity. It is unhealthy and will cause harm to the child. I have contacted some families, and they will judge and measure the harm the child will do to the family in advance. I usually advise such parents not to adopt children. Since 2000, Matthew A. Dalio, the founder and president of China Care Fund, has been committed to helping disabled children in China. Some of his friends and families in the United States have adopted Orphans in China. Because of his work, Matthew had contact with two Chinese families who adopted children. He said that he felt that compared with American families, Chinese families are more doting on their adopted children. Maybe this is the Chinese way of expressing love , American parents will also pamper their children, but they will not have special care for them. If we talk about special treatment, some of them will send Chinese children to Chinese schools, where these children will make many good friends and study every week Chinese will also make them remember their hometown."

Chai Jianhua added: "This little boy is 3 years old, and he can already decide everything by himself. What I am worried about is that he will not listen to you. If a child knows that he is adopted, his mind will become very sensitive, especially if there are still children at home. If you have other children, you will often compare yourself with the children born to your adoptive parents. I have thought about it for a long time. The best way to let a child integrate into the family is to let him not feel the difference. It is wrong for you to favor him. You should It makes him feel like other children. But the child is only sensitive and irritable when he is young, and after ten years old, he knows more things, becomes more obedient, and knows how to love his family."

He Zhonglan said: "Doctor Chai, don't worry, this child is very familiar to me. I watched him grow up and took care of him from time to time. What makes me happy is that he can already take care of himself."

Chai Jianhua nodded reassuringly, and took out 5,000 yuan from his pocket to He Jiafu: "You keep this money. You have to take care of three children. It is not easy. You can adopt this child, of course not because you want to use him to make a name for yourself." , I am not here to show any love, I just hope that he can live the life of a normal child like a normal child, and not live under the shadow of adoption."

In this way, He Zhonglan adopted the child, and He Jiafu named the little boy Nanyunshan. I hope that when the child grows up, no matter how the clouds and wind roar, he can stand like a mountain.

Chai Jianhua truthfully told Nan Yangsheng the adoption stories of the three children, and he finally let go of those words that were suppressed in his heart. Nan Yangsheng tightly held the hand of the old Chinese doctor lying on the hospital bed, tears slowly poured out of his eyes. He said to Chai Jianhua: "The epidemic is getting more and more crazy. Please take care, Mr. Chai. I will visit you often."