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2020年5月26日星期二

Free Yourself third chapter


   

1
   
    How did I get here?
    July 4, 1950, this day is my birthday. I didn't know until I grew up that "July 4" was actually the National Day of the United States. Many important turning points in my life are related to this "4".
The moon disappeared, and Shenyang City was dark before dawn.
In the hallway of a maternity hospital, it was extremely quiet, almost a bit scary. A middle-aged man wearing a light gray tunic suit is anxious about my birth. He is my father. What's the use of being anxious in the corridor?
Early in the morning, my father was preparing for work, and my mother was in labor.
    The doctor came and his father stared at him and greeted him. The doctor spoke first:
   "Comrade, don't worry, your wife is all right now!"
    Actually, where is normal?
    This doctor has the last name Shangguan, and everyone calls her Shangguan doctor. Is the authoritative doctor of this maternity hospital. He is clever in medicine, but he has also done a great job for me.
    Father couldn't control his anxiety, and finally asked Shangguan doctor:
   "Doctor, how long will you stay?"
    Dr. Shangguan yelled first, and then said, "Come on," and hurried into the delivery room.
    Naturally, my father was even more anxious, because Doctor Shangguan's reply was so hesitant. He was left alone in the corridor, slowly pacing to calm himself.
    Difficult delivery, because I was sitting on the hips. My mother said I tortured her for the same reason. Should I be responsible? Is it fair for my mother to nag? Originally, I was head-to-toe-foot-down. Where can I understand that it would be impossible to come to this world? Gao Ming, the doctor of Shangguan, for me, turned me upside down! It's not okay to head up, you must head down.
    So, as soon as I came to this world, the first thing was to cry. This cry is sharp and long-lasting. This cry gathers the essence of my little life. This cry is also my cry, my declaration, my protest ... Shouldn't life be heads down?
    It is said that my father hastily approached me and wanted to reach out and hug me, but he immediately withdrew his hand and stared at me with amazed eyes as if he was electrocuted.
    Dr. Shangguan smiled on the side: "This is your son ..."
    Yeah, isn't my father anxiously waiting? Waiting in the corridor day and night, is it not me who is looking forward to? Now he hesitated and hesitated, why? He narrowed his eyes and stared at me and said:
    "Hah, like a cub, a small hand, a small foot, a small face, red ..."
    This was my father's first conversation with me, and it was also his evaluation of me. Since then, I have been equated with "Siberian Tiger".
    Mother? Because I was sitting on the buttocks, I always tortured her, and called me a stubborn little red guy, and like my father, but my father said I was a Siberian tiger ...
    Not only do they want me to turn upside down in order to come to this world, but my parents treat me like this ...
    It is said that many people congratulated my dad at that time! Because I am a boy with a sparrow.
    Since it's hi, why do my parents treat me like that? Is this fair?
That's how I came to the world and became the son of my father and mother, connecting my destiny with them.
After the child is born, he has to take a name. The father is educated and a soldier. It stands to reason that he should decide the name of his son.
Mother looked out the window. The eastern sky began to whitish, and a fiery sun began to leap into the sky. At that time, Shenyang City was suddenly shrouded in the glow of the sun, which meant that a new day began.
The mother looked at the red and flaming sun and said to her father: "Just take a single name and call it Yang! This is auspicious and lucky name."
After his father stayed in Shenyang to work, he took his mother and brother to Shenyang. She was escorted to the hospital. I was a child with dystocia. I was sitting on the buttocks. It seems that I didn't care to come to this world. It was the doctor who spent the utmost effort to drag me into this world.
The mother finally opened her eyes, saw me, and saw the rising sun outside the window. The dazzling sun was shining, the sun was flooding the ground, and the windows were painted with gold.
Parents are negotiating, what is the name for me?
Mother looked at the sunlight outside the window: "How warm this sunlight is. The sunlight can shine on the earth, and it can also shine on the world and warm the family."
The sun is shining in the water near the hospital. The mother suddenly said to her father: "Let the child be called" Shenyang ". I will always remember the sun above the sun, and you will never forget the battle to liberate Shenyang that you participated in. The child grows up and lets him remember This place in Shenyang, remember this morning when you were born, it was a morning when the sun was rising, and there was the sunshine avenue outside the window. "
My father was stunned for a while: "Shenyang is a place name, how can it become a person's name?" But the father said immediately: "Okay, I participated in the battle of Liaoshen, this kid was born in Shenyang again, just when the sun rises, this name Significant."
At that time, the streets and alleys of Shenyang City, with green trees and red tiles, were full of people's feelings. This feeling was an active expression of people's lives and an ideal overflow of people. I came to this world with the sun.
Since then, Shenyang and I have an indissoluble bond.

2

My name is very sunny, but I grew up in the shadow of the sun. My childhood was spent in the days when I lost my fatherly love.
All this has to start with the big event that took place in March 1948. The People's Liberation Army, which has stood its heels in the Northeast, has developed into nearly 500,000 troops under the leadership of Lin Biao. Mao Zedong, Zhou Enlai, Ren Bishi, etc. left the northwest and came to Hebei to meet with Liu Shaoqi, Zhu De, etc., and discussed the situation at that time. Mao, Zhu, etc. grasped the timing of the strategic decisive battle in time, ordered the Northeast Field Army to go south to Beining, forcibly attack Jinzhou, and cut off the Northeast Jiang Army s withdrawal from North China. road. In order to completely wipe out the Northeast Kuomintang Military Guard Lihuang Group.
In order to be more sure, Lin Biao proposed to fight Changchun first, and then annihilate Shenyang to aid the enemy by way of encirclement. After Mao Zedong did many work, in July 1948, Lin Biao decided to do according to Mao Zedong's opinion and went south to attack Jinzhou.
During this period, Chiang Kai-shek was hesitant to withdraw and defend the Jiang army in the Northeast. Out of political interests, he finally did not decide to withdraw from the Northeast to North China.
On September 12, 1948, the battle of Liao and Shen finally started under Mao Zedong's insistence.
On October 14th, the main force of Dongye launched a general attack on Jinzhou, and he defeated Jinzhou in 31 hours. Then, Changchun declared liberation, and Shenyang and Yingkou were also liberated.
After joining the New Fourth Army, my father moved to Shandong with the main force of the New Fourth Army. After that, he was ordered to go north and was incorporated into the Northeast Democratic Alliance. The artillery unit under the leadership of Jia Tao became a gunner. Later he was included in the tank unit and participated in the famous Liaoshen. Battle.
 My father was deafened by the sound of artillery during the war, so he was transferred from the tank force to the public security system with the Military Management Committee, participated in the takeover of the trade union and education system, and later transferred to the work of the Education Bureau. In a short time, he was transferred to Shenyang No. 11 Middle School and became the principal. However, his father s deafness was only a temporary symptom of love loss caused by the vibration of the gunfire, and he soon healed.
My father once took a picture of my brother at the entrance of the 11th Middle School in Shenyang. It can be seen that this is where my father used to work.
Since February 1951, Shenyang City has divided the city's central area and sub-zones many times, with a maximum of 21 sub-zones. How big was Shenyang City at that time? At that time, Shenyang was very small, from the east to the Xiaodongmen gate, to the north to Laoguapuzi, to the south to Xiaonanmen, and to the west to the workers village. The lively places in Shenyang City are concentrated on Taiyuan Street and Zhong Street. Taiyuan Street is just a night market. There are only two trams connecting Taiyuan Street and Zhong Street. In the early days of liberation, there were too many names in the districts of the city, so many people could not remember. Shenyang was changed to a municipality directly under the Central Government in 1953, and then changed to a city under the jurisdiction of Liaoning Province the following year. Since then, Shenyang has become a city with a strong industrial base.
Shenyang No.11 Middle School, where his father worked, was founded in 1952 and is located in the bustling northbound area. From 1969 to 1971, it was merged with Qishan No. 1 School, known as Shenyang Rolling Mill School. In the early 1960s, it was identified as a key middle school in Liaoning Province. It became an independent high school in 1989 and is now a boarding high school.
Shenyang is an ancient city with a long history.
As early as 7,200 years ago, humans were farming, fishing and hunting here, proliferating and creating a new music culture.
During the Spring and Autumn Period and the Warring States Period, Shenyang was once the center of the Yan Kingdom. In 221 BC, after Qin Shihuang unified China, it was divided into 36 counties, and Shenyang was subordinate to Liaodong County.
Shenyang had an urban outline at the beginning, which was called "Houcheng" during the Western Han Dynasty. In the Tang Dynasty, it was renamed "Shenzhou".
In 921 AD, Liao Taizu emigrated to this land and began to build an earthen city, and production developed accordingly.
In the Jin Dynasty, after Jin Taizu captured Shenzhou, he still used the name "Shenzhou".
In 1296, the Tucheng was rebuilt in the Yuan Dynasty, and Shenzhou was renamed "Shenyang Road", under the jurisdiction of Liaoyang. Shenyang is located in the north of Shenshui. According to the traditional Chinese theory of orientation, that is, "mountain is yin and water is yang", Shenzhou is changed to Shenyang. Since then, the name "Shenyang" has officially appeared on historical materials and has a history of more than 700 years. Later, I knew that Shen Shui still had a name called "Hunhe".
As I grew older, I began to learn geography, history, and politics. I always pay special attention to the land of Shenyang.
In 1386, the emperor of the Ming Dynasty renamed this land "Shenyang Road" as "Shenyang Zhongwei".
In 1625, Qing's ancestor Nurhachi moved the capital city from Liaoyang to Shenyang, and set about building the imperial palace in Shenyang City, which is today's Shenyang Imperial Palace.
In 1643, Emperor Taizong of Qing Dynasty renamed Shenyang "Shengjing".
After the Qing Dynasty moved to Beijing in 1644, Shenyang became the capital.
In 1657, the Qing Dynasty set up Fengtian Mansion in Shenyang with the meaning of "Fengtian Carrier", Shenyang is also known as "Fengtian".
My father loves photography and left photos of our brothers and sisters in Shenyang taken in childhood. The framing of these photos are all in place, and even the angle of shooting changes from time to time. A series of photos taken by his father for his sister in Beiling Park are full of the dynamic of snapping. The younger sister leaned over to pick up the key on the ground, and then lifted the picked key over her head. Obviously, my father had conceived this set of photos beforehand, and he was able to skillfully press the shutter to capture the memory of this moment. These photos are also the only wealth left by our father.
My father used to talk about Beiling Park. Most of the photos he left were taken in Beiling.
Among them are three group photos of our brothers and sisters, as well as a group photo of my brother and me. These photos were taken in Beiling Park.
Shenyang is a famous historical and cultural city in the country and the first batch of excellent tourist cities in China, with rich and varied tourism resources.
In addition to Beiling, Shenyang s places of interest include Fuling, Zhaoling, Xinle Ruins Museum, Zhengjiawazi Bronze Short Sword Tomb, Yemaotai Liao Tomb, Yongan Stone Bridge, etc.
Fuling and Zhaoling are two of the well-known "Three Tombs outside the Guan", and they are the tombs of emperors with ancient Chinese architectural features and rich ethnic styles. Fuling is the tomb of the Qing Emperor Nurhachi and Empress Xiaoci Gao; Zhaoling is the Qing Dynasty The tombs of Emperor Taizong Taiji and Empress Xiaorui Wen are the largest of the three tombs left before the Qing Dynasty.
The tomb of Shenyang that his father said is also called the tomb of Qing Zhao. Zhaoling is the tomb of Taizong Huangtaiji, the second founding monarch of the Qing Dynasty, and Bolejijit, the queen of Xiaoduanwen. Zhaoling is also the largest and most magnificent of the Three Tombs outside the Customsin the early Qing Dynasty. Zhaoling is located in the ancient city of Shenyang, about ten miles north, so it is also called "Beiling". It is a tourist destination where Qing Dynasty royal tombs and modern gardens are integrated.
The ancient pine towers in the garden, lush vegetation, rippling lakes, majestic towers, and eye-catching golden tiles fully demonstrate the majesty and magnificence of the Royal Mausoleum and the elegance and beauty of modern gardens. In addition to burying the emperor, Zhaoling also buried a group of concubine beauties such as Concubine Sui Gongchen, Concubine Linzhi Palace, Concubine Laoqing Palace, etc. It is the most representative emperor mausoleum in the tomb outside the Qing Dynasty. One of the most complete extant buildings of ancient emperor tombs.
Zhaoling was built in the eight years of Chongde in Qing Dynasty and basically completed in the eight years of Shunzhi. After many renovations and additions, it showed its current scale. The layout of the mausoleum building follows the mausoleum principle of "front to back". It consists of three parts: front, center, and back from south to north. The main building is built on the central axis, symmetrically arranged on both sides, imitating the emperor of the Ming Dynasty. The mausoleum has the characteristics of Manchu tombs.
The Zhaoling Tomb covers an area of ​​180,000 square meters, divided into three parts. From south to north, they are: front, from Xia Mabei to Zhenghongmen, including Huabiao, Shishi, Shipaifang, dressing room, slaughterhouse; central, from Zhenghongmen to Fangcheng, including Huabiao, Shi Xiangsheng, Beilou and The ritual house; the rear part is Fangcheng, Crescent City and Baocheng, which is the main body of the mausoleum.
The main entrance of Fangcheng is called Longen Gate, and there is a gatehouse on it. There are turrets at the four corners of Fangcheng. In the Fangcheng, there are Long En Hall, East and West Part Hall, East and West Fruit Drying Room and Burning Pavilion. Behind the Longen Temple, there are the two-pillar gate, the stone five confessions, and the gate gate, and the top of the gate cave is the Daming Tower. Fangcheng is followed by Crescent City and Baocheng. In the center of Baocheng, there is Baoding on the top and Underground Palace on the bottom. Behind Baocheng is Longye Mountain, overlooking the mountain, and the mausoleum scenery can be seen in full view.
The front part of Zhaoling Mausoleum is outside the wall. There are Huabiao, Shishi, dressing kiosks, etc. on both sides of the road, and the middle is the archway. The arch is the main building in the front, built in bluestone, with four columns and three floors. It is exquisitely carved and exquisite. It is a rare art treasure. You can walk to the archway to the Red Gate, this is the beginning of the middle of the tour. The Zhenghongmen is the Zhengnanmen of the wall. The high-rise floors are very solemn, and the five-colored glazed flat dragon wall decorated by its two wings is more striking because of its vivid shape.
On both sides of the Taoist gate in the Zhenghongmen, there are Huabiao, Shibei and Dawangzhu, which are opposite each other. Both tidy and solemn. Among the stone beasts, "Big White" and "Little White" are most worthy of appreciation. The two stone horses are realistic and vivid, and are said to have been carved out of the two horses that the tomb owner loved to ride during his lifetime. After the stone horse, you can reach the stele. The Stele Pavilion is opposite to the Zhenghong Gate and was built to celebrate the tomb owner.
From the monument to Longen Gate. Long En Gate is the south gate of Fangcheng, opposite to Beiting. The Fangcheng is the rear part. It is built like a city and located on the wall, as if it is a city in the city. Long En Temple lives in the center of Fangcheng, with Long En Gate in the front, Ming Tower in the back, and the matching hall on the left and right, and the corner tower in the four corners. The Longen Hall is based on exquisitely carved granite steps, with golden glazed yellow glazed tiles as the roof, together with painted beams and red walls with golden plaques, so it is extremely gorgeous. After the Longen Hall, you can pass to the Ming Tower to reach Baocheng. Baocheng is crescent-shaped at the northern end of Fangcheng. Baocheng, also known as Baoding, has the underground palace below which houses the coffin and burial objects of the tomb owner's couple. Ascending to the top of the treasure, looking down, the trees are surrounded by greenery, and the scenery is quiet, just like being in the mountain forests of the city, a sense of comfort arises spontaneously.
There is also a treasure city in Beiling. Baocheng is crescent-shaped at the northern end of Fangcheng. Baocheng, also known as Baoding, has the underground palace below which houses the coffin and burial objects of the tomb owner's couple. Climb to the top of Baoding, look around, the green trees are surrounded, the scenery is quiet, as if you are in the mountain forest of the city.
Another feature of Zhaoling is the ancient pine clusters that are miles away. There are more than two thousand pine trees in existence. The pine trees are over three hundred years old. They are swaying and standing tall and towering. These verdant pine trees constitute another magnificent landscape of Zhaoling in the red wall of golden tiles. Among them, the "God Tree", "Phoenix Tree", "Couple Tree", "Sister Tree" and "Turtle Tree" are even more unique. Features.
In May of the 16th year of the Republic of China (1927), Zhaoling was established as the "Beiling Park" centered on the tomb, and now covers an area of ​​3.32 million square meters. The overall plan is centered on the mausoleum, divided into three parts: the mausoleum, the tomb and the tomb. The natural landscape in the park is varied and colorful. Among them, Fangxiu Garden is the garden of Beiling Park, with a total area of ​​40,000 square meters. It has planted nearly 200 kinds of plants, each season has its own characteristics. In the early spring, the cherry blossoms are in full bloom, and the garden is full of fragrance; in the summer, the lotus flowers are blooming, and the willow smells the warbler; in the late autumn, the mountains are colored with red leaves, and the forest is dyed; Throughout the garden, there are flowers in spring, shades in summer, fruits in autumn, green in winter, peculiar flowers and stones, small bridges and flowing water. The architecture and landscape in the garden are ingeniously combined. The traditional Chinese garden architecture art combines natural beauty and artificial beauty to form a natural picture.
Beiling Park also has an artificial lake surface of 300,000 square meters. Beiling Park is already a famous tourist attraction at home and abroad. Now it is a national key cultural relics protection unit.
The Xinle site is an early tribal site of the Matrilineal clan commune in the Neolithic Age in northern China. It has been more than 7,200 years ago. The Zhengjiawazi bronze short sword tomb is located in Yuhong District of Shenyang City, and is an ancient tomb group during the Spring and Autumn Period and the Warring States Period. The Ye Maotai Liao tombs are located in Faku County and are the tombs of Xiao Yi and his family. Yong'an Bridge, located in Yuhong District, is a relatively well-preserved stone arch bridge in the early Qing Dynasty in Shenyang City.
Shenyang Imperial Palace is the only remaining palace complex in China except Beijing Imperial Palace. It has high historical and artistic value. It is a palace created and used by Qing Taizu Nurhachi and Qing Taizong Emperor Taiji.
When it comes to the old buildings and historical sites in Shenyang, my mother is sometimes like a treasure. Which corner of the old house has a story and which alley has history, she can tell some. The mother said: "Shenyang's old city wall is not the same as the wall in other places. It is not square but peach-shaped." Unfortunately, it is no longer visible.
My sister was also born in Shenyang. Her father originally wanted to give her a single name "Li", and even the surname is a homonym for "victory". The aunt said: "The word" profit "is not good, let's change it to" power ", which is both a homonym of" victory "and a symbol of strength." The girl took a very masculine name, and no one objected. With her own efforts and strength, the younger sister also successfully embarked on her own path.
Only my younger brother, born in Shenyang, has a bad fate. In the five years he has lived in Shanghai, he has been living at the lowest level among Shanghai residents. He had a high fever that year. For several days, the high fever persisted, but the family had no money to treat him. Later, with the help of neighbors, my brother was rushed to Guangci Hospital, which is the best hospital in Shanghai. The younger brother can also call the nurse "aunt". Who would have thought that as soon as he finished the injection, his brother closed his eyes and left the world. The mother embraced her son, who was still talking, and was desperate. For this reason, the mother later complained about her father, why she gave her brother the unlucky name. Because the younger brother is also a single name, it is a "ling". Maybe my father always thinks of Beiling in Shenyang. It is said that the comrades he sacrificed were buried in that park.
I also have a big brother and a younger brother. They were both born in Shanghai, but they all died prematurely. It should be said that my mother gave birth to six siblings, and the younger sister is the only princess in the family. The mother also loves her the most, but I call her "Queen".
But in the days of Shenyang, my father did a stupid thing.
I heard from my mother that she suffered from epilepsy when she was in the Northeast. At the first attack, the father was terrified. The father saw that his mother bit her teeth tightly, spitting out a lot of foam in her mouth, and spreading her hair down on the ground. On the one hand, he used chopsticks to pick up the upper and lower teeth that his mother had bitten together, and pryed off the left incisor. The mother's gold incisor left incisor was fitted after that episode. Since then, his father has sought medical treatment for his mother everywhere.
3

    At that time, we lived near Shenyang Beiling. Father is very amiable at home. He likes to cook by himself, and also learns to cut and sew clothes with his mother. My father also likes to feed chickens. He often grabs a handful of chopped vegetables or rice grains and scatters them on the open ground. Then he makes a chicken call like an old lady: "Valley-valley-valley-" Eat.
    However, whenever my father lay down on the bed and watched "Three Hundred Tang Poems", it was time for me and my brother to suffer. He asked my brother and I to stand in front of him and recite Tang poetry.
    My eyes were fixed on the sanitary fragrance, which was inserted on the square stool. Father stipulated that the sanitary incense burned out, and we can recite Tang poetry to stop.

The old people have gone by the yellow crane,
This place is free of Yellow Crane Tower.
Huang He is gone forever,
Baiyun is so long.
Qingchuan calendar Hanyang tree,
Parsnip Island.
Where is Rimu Xiangguan?
Worrying on the Yanbo River!

    That sanitary incense is made specially, and it can't be burnt anymore. There are always light smoke floating slowly. My brother and I had to read it and memorize it ...
    Later, there was one thing my father would never let us recite Tang poetry.
Because, father sometimes takes us to his school, this is when we rejoice, because he takes us to visit various laboratories, there are physical, chemical, biological, I have those magical instruments and Specimens of animals and plants are of particular interest.
If his father is in class, he will also allow us to sit properly in the front row against the wall. Although we didn't dare to sit in a class without moving, we still felt more comfortable than watching the smell of sanitary incense burn out.
Because the lessons taught by my father are not those verses that do not understand, but tell us: the earth we live in is round, and there are mountains and sea above this round earth. There was a round ball on his father s podium, and his father said, "This is a globe."
My father sometimes went to a meeting, and my brother and I cut out the stamps on the letters that many people sent to my father one by one, and put the cut stamps on the face filled with warm water according to the method taught by our father. In the basin, when the stamps and envelopes are separated, they are affixed to the glass windows one by one. When the stamps are dry, the stamps are removed and placed in the philatelic book.
The philately book was made by his father himself. His father likes to do everything himself, just like the clothes he wears, and he never bought them from the store. My father often said: I only know what I do to love and cherish.
Once, when my father was away, I slipped into the specimen room to see the beautiful specimens, birds, cats, monkeys. Suddenly, I heard the sound of reading in the classroom next door. I quietly stood at the door of the classroom.
    The sound of studying stopped.
    I saw a young female teacher looking through a blue-cover booklet, which was a roll book. She was looking for the names of the students she wanted. This is a new teacher, because I have not seen her, I know all the teachers here.
    I didn't hear what I heard, but I immediately saw a student stand up.
   "You memorize the poem just now," the female teacher said.
    Quietly in the classroom.
    The student's face was flushed with his head down. After a while, he got up:
Chunmian didn't realize it,
 How much does Hualuo know ...
   
 The students laughed.
    The student looked back at everyone in horror, thought for a while, and recite it again:
How much do the flowers know,
Chunmian doesn't know ...
   
   The students laughed again, leaning back and forth.
   "Pap! Pap!" The female teacher tapped hard on the blackboard with that powerful pointer, and the education immediately returned to calm.
    The student lowered his head, his chin pressed against his collar, and his face turned red.
    The female teacher clasped her hands, clasped the terrible pointer, and walked around in front of the blackboard. Suddenly, she stopped pacing and turned to say aloud, "Who will carry it?"
    Somehow, the students did not dare to squeak for a moment, so quiet that they were afraid, and slowly they raised some small hands on the desk. At this moment, I ran into a catastrophe, and I did not know exactly what it was for. I walked in front of the female teacher, glanced at her, and recited it:

Chunmian didn't realize it,
Smell birds everywhere.
The sound of wind and rain at night,
How much do flowers know?

    After I finished the memorization, the female teacher suddenly realized: "Where did you come from?"
   "This is the principal's child." A student told her.
    She nodded and said to me: "Go out, we are in class."
    That night, the female teacher came to my house. She told my father about this one by one, and then dragged me into her arms: "You can recite Tang poetry when you are only four years old. You are very smart, It must be very promising in the future! "
    But my father did not praise me like she did, but scolded me fiercely. Since then, he never took me and my brother to school again. I hated the female teacher.
    But my father no longer wanted me and my brother to stand side by side with his bed to recite Tang poetry.
Until now, I ca nt tell clearly what happened to me that day brought me disaster? Or blessing?



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