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When Nan Yangsheng first arrived in Hong Kong, in order to let him know more about the city, Wanru took Nan Yangsheng to drive around Tsuen Wan Square in Hong Kong at night, and told him stories about Hong Kong people along the way.

Wanru, who is used to nightlife, is going to take Nan Yangsheng to see the night view of Victoria Harbour. At this time, Nan Yangsheng received a call from Pan Guangfu's cell phone.

Pan Guangfu told Nan Yangsheng: Chai Jianhua was being rescued at Queen Mary Hospital, and Chai Jianhua's wife Han Erniang was accompanying him.

Nan Yangsheng said to Pan Guangfu: Wanru and I will come right away.

Nan Yangsheng turned off his cell phone with a heavy heart. Chai Jianhua was his grandfather's best old comrade-in-arms. During the Republic of China, they were arrested together and sent to the front to fight the Japanese devils. After the two were injured, they stayed on the mainland, but experienced the impact and tribulation of political movements time and time again. Grandpa and mother passed away successively, but Chai Jianhua always regarded him as his own child.

Wanru drove towards Mary Hospital.

Wanru told Nan Yangsheng: Hong Kong’s critical illness insurance can protect 126 kinds of diseases, and the return of savings dividend insurance is higher than that of investment in real estate, with high protection amount, wider coverage and lower premium. There are many best hospitals in Hong Kong, including Queen Mary Hospital, Prince of Wales Hospital, Sanatorium and Hospital, Nethersole Hospital, Queen Elizabeth Hospital and United Christian Hospital. Queen Mary Hospital is one of the major public hospitals in Hong Kong. Founded in 1937, Queen Mary Hospital is now a regional acute hospital and a teaching hospital for the Li Ka Shing Faculty of Medicine of the University of Hong Kong. Queen Mary Hospital is located on Pok Fu Lam Road, Hong Kong. It is also the leading hospital and specialist referral center of Hong Kong West Cluster, providing 24-hour emergency services, surgery, organ transplantation, pediatrics, various specialist services, rehabilitation care and intensive care of the Correctional Services Department service and more. Queen Mary Hospital is particularly outstanding in cardiology, and there are many excellent and famous doctors in the field.

In addition to providing comprehensive and high-quality medical services for the general public, the hospital also integrates the expertise and research potential of the Hospital Authority and universities to provide special third-tier and fourth-tier care, providing suitable services for the education, training and development of medical staff. environment, tutors and facilities, while promoting the work of education and research.

Along the way, Wanru told Nan Yangsheng the story of Pan Guangfu:

Pan Guangfu's father, Pan Renshu, died of dementia. Pan Renshu was also Chai Jianhua's comrade-in-arms.

Wei Zhongzhi, a student of Pan Renshu, is a famous Chinese scholar in Hong Kong. Wei Zhongzhi was more than 20 years younger than Pan Renshu. Wei Zhongzhi's father also joined the national army, was injured in an anti-Japanese battle, and was taken care of by Pan Renshu. Wei Zhongzhi's father left a will, asking Wei Zhongzhi to find Pan Renshu and take good care of him.

Wei Zhongzhi found Pan Renshu through his personal connections. Under the introduction of Wei Zhongzhi, Pan Renshu got to know Mai Shu. Mai Shu's father, Mai Changhong, was a veteran cadre of the Red Army. He later joined the Four Fields and studied at the Anti-Japanese University. Later, he moved to a local area and worked as the secretary of the party committee of a state-owned enterprise. During the Cultural Revolution, he was hit hard. Mai Shu was also criticized. Later, they were all rehabilitated. During the reform period, the couple went to Hong Kong together to do business. As a result, I got to know many CCP united front cadres. Mai Changhong brought Pan Renshu's family to Hong Kong through his friends in relevant CPPCC departments. Funded by Wei Zhongzhi, Pan Renshu opened a Chinese medicine clinic in Hong Kong.

The clinic founded by Pan Renshu was once managed by his son Pan Guangfu, but Pan Guangfu was not good at managing the clinic. After graduating from university, he worked as a reporter for the Hong Kong media.

Wanru said to Nanyangsheng again:

Han Erniang once chatted with me about the past of Pan Renshu and Mai Shu, and also about his son Pan Guangfu. Han Erniang told me that when Pan Guangfu's parents were persecuted during the Cultural Revolution, Pan Guangfu was traumatized as a child and became a son of a bitch. Because he was born in such a family, Pan Guangfu was discriminated against, suppressed and ridiculed since he was a child. He is sensitive, introverted, and fragile. He felt the pain brought about by his family and the outside world at a young age. The poor family background became a dark cloud in the sky of Pan Guangfu growing up. No one talked to him, so he communicated with himself in the diary. Pan Guangfu believed that all these sufferings were brought about by his father, Pan Renshu, and Pan Guangfu, who was young, kept blaming his father in his heart.

When Pan Guangfu was 14 years old, three classmates insulted Pan Guangfu's father verbally. He couldn't bear the humiliation and started fighting with each other. As a result, Pan Guangfu was beaten black and blue by three classmates, and the teacher called the parents of the students to the school. Pan Guangfu's father, Pan Renshu, not only failed to protect his son, but slapped Pan Guangfu twice in front of his classmates' parents. Father Pan Renshu's slaps were like two steel knives, deeply piercing Pan Guangfu's heart. Pan Guangfu believed that his father, Pan Renshu, had joined the national army and was an anti-communist rightist, which jeopardized his political future. Since then, in order to draw a clear line with his father, Pan Guangfu has not spoken to his father Pan Renshu for 17 years.

Wanru said: Chai Jianhua once persuaded Pan Renshu not to blame Pan Guangfu, he will wake up, it is only a matter of time.

Pan Guangfu graduated from high school. There are two high school classes in the school, with a total of 98 students. Only 5 of them were admitted to university, and Pan Guangfu was one of them.

Mai Mang is Mai Shu's elder brother and Mai Changhong's eldest son. Mak Mang is a pup of the Cultural Revolution, a soldier, a fan, and a manager of a Hong Kong company. With the help of Maimang, Pan Guangfu applied for the School of Journalism. Away from his father Pan Renshu and his family.

  On August 28, 1981, when Pan Guangfu was about to go to study in the School of Journalism, his parents came to see him off. Pan Guangfu only spoke a few words to his tearful mother, but had no communication with his father. He didn't even look at his father Pan Renshu, but after boarding the car, Pan Guangfu burst into tears.

In 1984, Pan Guangfu joined a media company after graduating from the School of Journalism. During his work, Pan Guangfu published two novels, "The Lonely Man" and "A Hundred Enlightenments of Life". He also began to write the novel "Enlightenment". He sent the manuscript to many publishing houses and magazines across the country, but all of them were rejected.

In 1993, Pan Guangfu got married and his wife was named Wang Yiyi. Wang Yiyi is from Nanjing. Pan Guangfu met her in Nanjing and fell in love with her. After more than a year, they entered the palace of marriage. After marriage, Pan Guangfu took his new wife back to his hometown to visit relatives. His father Pan Renshu was very happy, and his wrinkled face smiled like a chrysanthemum. But Pan Guangfu didn't call "Dad", but greeted his father vaguely.

After marriage, Pan Guangfu voluntarily applied to be transferred to a small newspaper in Chengdu as a reporter, and began to live apart from his wife. At this time, the wife was pregnant and was about to give birth. Pan Guangfu went to Chengdu alone, while his wife stayed at her natal home in Nanjing to prepare for pregnancy.

When his son Pan Fenqing was born, Pan Guangfu did not arrive at his wife's side in time. Pan Guangfu and Wang Yiyi had a son, Pan Fenqing. Pan Guangfu took his wife and children to Chengdu to live with him after more than a month.

Pan Guangfu is a workaholic. Apart from doing interviews, he writes novels when he returns home. He doesn't help his wife with housework and rarely takes care of his son. At home, Pan Guangfu often immerses himself in his novels and talks to the protagonist in his heart.

In this way, he could not help but neglect his wife. The wife could not enter Pan Guangfu's inner world, and felt that there was a layer between herself and Pan Guangfu.

At that time, Pan Guangfu's writing was not going well. The novel "Enlightenment" had been written for 11 years and experienced 17 rejections. Originally written 1.21 million words, only 210,000 words were kept when it was published.

After get off work, Pan Guangfu often revises his novels at home, and it is dawn when he is busy. His state of life was not what his wife wanted, and the two began to have stumbling blocks.

Pan Guangfu had conflicts with his wife Wang Yiyi. Finally chose to divorce.

Wang Yiyi went to Hong Kong. After Wang Yiyi remarried in Hong Kong, she gave birth to a daughter, Xiangzhu, who studied at a medical school in Taiwan.

In 1997, Pan Guangfu also went to Hong Kong. He took over the clinic of his father Pan Renshu, but he didn't like the management. I went to a Hong Kong self-media as a reporter. Soon, he worked as a screenwriter in the TV drama department of a self-media film and television company. During this period, Pan Guangfu fell in love with his assistant Gillian. Pan Guangfu married Gillian and had a son and a daughter.

In 2003, Pan Guangfu's novel "Yangmou" was published by Overseas Writers Publishing House. This work was adapted into a TV series of the same name, which became a smash hit, and Pan Guangfu was also very popular.

Later, when a catastrophic earthquake occurred in Wenchuan, Sichuan, Pan Guangfu and a few friends initiated a fund-raising campaign and rushed to the disaster-stricken area for disaster relief and interviews. In the devastated ruins, Pan Guangfu saw many gray-haired old people, some sitting on the ground weeping, and some crying loudly holding the bodies of their children.

At this time, Pan Guangfu suddenly thought of his elderly father, Pan Renshu. He had not called his father for more than 10 years. He thought that his father, Pan Renshu, must have loved him. Being away from his father for so many years had caused Pan Guangfu a lot of pain in his heart.

After returning from the earthquake-stricken area, Pan Guangfu changed his mind. After Pan Guangfu returned to Hong Kong, he went to visit his parents. When he walked into the house, his father Pan Renshu sat on a chair and asked him blankly: Who are you looking for?

Pan Guangfu said his name, and his father Pan Renshu shook his head: I don't know you.

His mother, Mai Shu, told Pan Guangfu sadly: "Your father has suffered from dementia for several years, and now he doesn't know anyone. He occasionally wakes up for one or two hours a week.

Pan Guangfu suddenly burst into tears: his father, Pan Renshu, was originally a farmer. He joined the national army when he was a young man. In order to protect the children, he endured humiliation and dared not dispute with anyone.

Pan Guangfu suddenly understood his father Pan Renshu, and felt sorry for his estrangement from his father for so many years. He tried his best to bring back the memory of his father Pan Renshu, but no matter how he told about the moving past when he was a child, his father Pan Renshu was indifferent.

After a while, my father Pan Renshu said: I am sleepy and going to bed. He lay down on the chair and fell asleep.

When Pan Guangfu left, he told his mother Mai Shu: If Dad wakes up, please tell me right away. Later, his father Pan Renshu woke up twice, and his mother Mai Shu hurriedly called Pan Guangfu.

Pan Guangfu lived only 46 kilometers away from his parents' home. When Pan Guangfu drove home, his father Pan Renshu was confused again. Pan Guangfu wanted to reconcile with his father, wanted to say sorry to him, but he didn't have this opportunity, which became Pan Guangfu's eternal regret and heartache.

In September 2011, Pan Guangfu's father, Pan Renshu, passed away. At 9 o'clock that night, he received a call from his mother, saying that his father, Pan Renshu, had completely lost his mind.

At that time, Pan Guangfu was rushing to write the novel "Crisis", and the first half of the novel had already been published in a magazine, and the editor was waiting for the rice to be cooked. Pan Guangfu wanted to finish his novel and went to see his father Pan Renshu the next day. However, his father, Pan Renshu, left without waiting for him to come. Pan Guangfu failed to see his father for the last time, and did not say "I'm sorry" to his father himself, which became an eternal pain in his heart.

When returning home for the funeral, Pan Guangfu was still writing novels in the mourning hall of his father Pan Renshu, and he cried while writing. After finishing the novel, he knelt in his father's mourning hall and wept bitterly. He felt that this was a great mockery and punishment for his writing. What can I bring to myself by writing all day long?

After his father Pan Renshu left, Pan Guangfu had a deep knot in his heart. He slept on his father Pan Renshu's bed for half a year, and used his filial piety to help his mother Mai Shu relieve the pain of widowhood.

In the spring of 2012, my mother tore down the bed of my father, Pan Renshu, and said to Pan Guangfu: You are a family man, so go home and be with your wife and son. You are a good son, and if your father knows it, he will be glad.

After his father left, Pan Guangfu encountered another trouble: Pan Guangfu and his ex-wife Wang Yiyi had a son, Pan Fenqing. His son Pan Fenqing has been living with him. His son, Pan Fenqing, entered puberty, and suddenly he shut himself up and was unwilling to go to school. Pan Fenqing locked herself in her room, played games and surfed the Internet every day, and never went out except for eating and going to the bathroom.

The son did not speak to Pan Guangfu, and Pan Guangfu was not allowed to go to his room. No matter how he tried to persuade him, the son did not say a word.

Pan Guangfu's continuation wife, Gillian, is a kind woman. Gillian treats Pan Fenqing, son of Pan Guangfu and his ex-wife Wang Yiyi, very kindly. Pan Fenqing was brought up by Wang Yiyi's sister Wang Yanyan.

Pan Fenqing and his father Pan Guangfu are heartbroken, but Pan Guangfu hopes that the father and son will reconcile. Pan Guangfu regretted his unfeeling towards his father Pan Renshu, and finally went to visit his father. But at this time, his father, Pan Renshu, was demented and died soon after.

Pan Guangfu's heart was torn apart at this time, and he realized the entanglement and pain in his father's heart back then.

The state of his son Pan Fenqing completely disrupted Pan Guangfu's life. He did not turn on the computer or write for a year. Even though many publishing houses and media reporters came to him, some people put a stack of money in front of Pan Guangfu and asked him to write TV dramas. Some invited him to participate in activities, and some wanted to interview him, but Pan Guangfu declined all of them.

Only then did he truly realize that a man can't just work, but also take on the responsibilities of a father and husband.

Pan Guangfu seldom shed tears, but in the confrontation with his son, he often burst into tears. The son was closed at home for three years. How many nights, Pan Guangfu sat at the door of his son's room, listening to the sound of his son playing games inside, with tears in his eyes.

In the middle of the night, Pan Guangfu knocked on the door outside and asked his son Pan Fenqing: Are you hungry? Shall I make you some supper? The son turned a deaf ear and didn't answer at all.

In 2015, his son Pan Fenqing turned 18 and began to communicate with Pan Guangfu. Pan Guangfu encouraged his son to prepare a coming-of-age ceremony. Under his father's guidance, Pan Fenqing got in touch with some famous writers and celebrities in the entertainment industry and asked them to sign the book.

These well-known writers and celebrities in the entertainment industry had friendship with Pan Guangfu, and soon sent their autographs. Pan Fenqing auctioned it online and donated all the money to the flood-stricken area of Zhengzhou, Jiangnan.

Pan Fenqing felt that he had grown up and had done something meaningful, with a smile on his face, Pan Guangfu couldn't help but burst into tears.

In 2016, Pan Fenqing passed the TOEFL test and was admitted to the Department of Education of a university in Portland, USA. His son did not tell Pan Guangfu about preparing for the exam. When his son Pan Fenqing told Pan Guangfu that he was admitted, Pan Guangfu had mixed feelings.

In August of this year, when Pan Fenqing went to study in the United States, Pan Guangfu prepared his son's luggage at home. He dug out a few photos of his son when he was a child, wrote a letter to his son, and put it in his suitcase together with 2,000 dollars.

When his son Pan Fenqing left home, he hugged Pan Guangfu tightly. Both father and son had tears in their eyes.

After his son Pan Fenqing went to Portland, Pan Guangfu wrote a letter to his son: When I played the father, I was not very competent. When every child has a cold war with their parents, it will deeply hurt the parents' hearts. Maybe your father never praised you face to face, but he has always regarded you as pride in his heart. The sign of a person's maturity is to learn to reconcile with his parents...

After Pan Fenqing read the letter, she wept.

In the summer of 2020, Pan Guangfu's mother, Mai Shu, fell down in the community, and her false teeth broke her cheek. When Pan Guangfu arrived at the hospital, his mother, Mai Shu, had a swollen mouth, a blue face, and fell into a coma. Pan Guangfu sent his mother to the ICU ward. Her brain had fluid accumulation, multiple tubes were inserted into her body, and her trachea was cut open. The doctor advised Pan Guangfu to give up, but Pan Guangfu stubbornly wanted to protect his mother's life.

After Chai Jianhua arrived in Hong Kong, he lived in Han Er's family. At that time, Chai Jianhua and Han Erniang had been going to the hospital to take care of Mai Shu. But Mai Shu no longer had any reaction or consciousness. Pan Guangfu would go to the hospital every day to touch his mother's hair and face. As long as his mother is still lying in the ward, he feels that his mother is alive and he is a child with a mother.

On New Year's Day of the second year, Pan Guangfu had to ask the doctor to pull out the tube from his mother Mai Shu. When her mother really left, Pan Guangfu squatted in the ward and cried.

Seeing off his father Pan Renshu and his mother Mai Shu, Pan Guangfu often reflected on himself. He had already forgiven his father and those who hurt him when he was young. He knows that those people are not bad in nature, and all kindness and hatred are caused by the times.

After his spiritual nirvana, Pan Guangfu felt that he was reborn.

Today, Pan Guangfu is 69 years old, and his life is entering old age. At that time, his eldest son Pan Fenqing was 36 years old, his younger son was 18 years old, and his daughter was only 14 years old. One son and one daughter have grown up, but Pan Guangfu does not dare to grow old, and wants to accompany his children to grow up healthily with fatherly love.

Wanru said to Nan Yangsheng: Pan Guangfu once accompanied me, Han Erniang, and Chai Jianhua to the cemeteries of Pan Renshu and Mai Shu.